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12 days.
Thats a while.

And only a little longer until I make an actual update.

I just couldnt do it.

I just didnt have the heart, this time.
And thats all I have to say about it.

I'm sad.
I'm saddened.
I'm HeartLESS.

I really dont have much to say this late at night.
I need to either think more, or stop thinking.
I need a hug.
I need to sit and relax.
I need to be rescued from my room.


I need to run.

Hard to think.

With a brain fried from a long days events and serious roller coaster rides on the mind.

Not the theme park kind, either.

I'm strapped in, I'm upside down, Its inverted, and the strap just broke.

Do I sit and hold on tight, or do I let go, and hope that the only thing that IS holding me in doesnt unlatch and send me tumbling like a ragdoll head over heels to become a heap on the pavement. head caved in. Thats ironic.

I love roller coasters.

It was all in all, a busy day. I filled up the tank once, almost had to again, with all the running around I did.
Started off great.
Middle was good.
End was a train wreck.
I dont want to watch, but I cant help but stare.
Stare hard.
Squinting, in fact, at the crumpled mess that I seemed to have caused.
Thank goodness nobody was on it.
Wait. I was.

Two different me.
Standing, watching from the outside.
206 pieces of axial and appendicular powder inside.

So boiled down, its an answer of regret.
How do you really feel?

It wont happen again. It wont happen again. It wont happen again.
It wont.
It happened.

Shit.
Once, thats all right. I can beg for forgiveness.
Hope to receive it.

I have been trying to prove my worth now for almost a month. I'll keep that up.
I'm different. I'm strong.
I'm broken.

Open your eyes.